right eye

2025.08.27

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the worst part about all of this is that everything began as normal. i woke up early, my mom asked how was classes yesterday, and i went to classes and even met a few of my old friends there. as such, i could barely even tell that i was dreaming, and that’s when things started to get strange.

i had this incessant feeling in my right eye. i couldn’t tell you what it felt like, but it felt as if it was something foreign or cold. the more i kindled this feeling, the more it felt as if i was moving on my own, and eventually all of my focus went into itching my right eye. suddenly, my nail got under it. instead of panicking, i took out my right eye, pragmatically and without feeling. i couldn’t remember how or when, but i remember holding it in my right hand, slowly trotting to the sink, turning on the garbage disposal and chucking it down the drain. the eye splattered around the machine. soon after that, what i did came back to me all at once, and i looked in the mirror.

i couldn’t find my right eye.

i tested my depth perception a few times. my brain seemed to be in denial, as it would show a faux projection of my left eye whenever i got close to things or tried crossing my eye. but i could still feel the wind hit the insides of my eyesocket. it didn’t hurt. it was just cold. and God forbid any particulates or dust fell into there. none of that happened in my dream but i would imagine it’d hurt like hell! the only time i would be able to confirm i was blind was when i did these two things. for one, i would close my eyes firmly, but not enough to scrunch up my face. then, i would open my right eye. that’s when i saw absolutely nothing.

i tried to reckon with my new life as a one-eye, but part of me just couldn’t. i felt as if there was something more going on. i took great care not to go anywhere near my left eye for the rest of the dream. and as i went back to bed, the ceiling fan almost drying out the insides of my orbit, i couldn’t cry.

and then, i woke up. i closed my eyes again, held my hand up to my face, and..

i found my right eye.

i was so happy.